I realized that there had to be more to life than what I had going on for me. God was absent in all of my beginnings. When I finally got to the point where I can make my own decisions, I made decisions that were not the best. Hanging out, partying, doing all of that stuff that was just tragic for my relationships and tragic to me and tragic to my relationship with Christ. When I saw my life at the age of about 23, 24, I started to rethink about where my life could have been and where it is, where it was at that point in time and I didn't like it.
I started to ask myself what was my purpose because I didn't do any of the things that I planned to do and I was just basically a ball of partying and just being wild. I looked at it and it really got me depressed. I began having these reoccurring dreams and I was totally afraid of it. I would wake up sweating. I would wake up just basically afraid out of my mind. I tried to numb it by partying more, drinking more, just taking my mind off of it.
It got to the point where I was getting three hours worth of sleep but even though over that whole course of the year, at least once a month I would have this reoccurring dream of Jesus's return. I've never heard the message of Jesus' return that way before the way I saw it in my dream. It frightened me to know that I was afraid to see him and I was running away from him in my dreams.
One day I was just heading to work really early and he did. He said, "Go to church and follow God." I wasn't in the vehicle on my own, I couldn't believe it, but it was so audible I learned in my mind that, that was God calling me. I decided to give my life to Jesus that very same day because it was, it couldn't have been anybody but him and I knew my need for him and I wanted to be ready to meet him.
My life now has purpose. He's just been doing enormous, great amazing things. He showed me my purpose in life is to be ready and to help persons be ready for that same dream that I had that we will not be afraid and will not run away from God. When he returns we'll be happy to see him. That's my purpose in life to tell people about the love of Jesus.
My name is Lukandah, and I have reclaimed my faith.